Sad Goodbye

Well coming here to write this is harder than I thought. Yesterday was easily the WORST day of my life. After class I went to the store to buy some comfy maternity jeans and yoga pants because my jeans were just too tight because of all my bloat. After trying on the pants I went to the restroom where i noticed a color I didn't want to see. Rushed home to find blood. Started crying hysterically called the ER and rushed in. After 2 hours there and heavier bleeding, vaginal ultrasound that showed nothing, urine test that was very faint, and blood work that showed a beta level at 17 it was over. We lost our sweet baby :(

I'm not sure what we will decide to do, but we were so excited to be parents and start our family even though we weren't really expecting it. Something like that makes you think about what your priorities are. I think we are starting to realize what ours are and what we really want.

Hopefully soon I will be back here to give great news of another baby, but until then I'll leave you with some bible verses that have helped me get through this hard time.

Jeremiah 29:11 For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.

 

Psalm 37:4 Take delight in the LORD, and he will give you the desires of your heart.

 

Proverbs 3:5-6 Trust in the LORD with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways submit to him, and he will make your paths straight.